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Lira ([personal profile] catlarks) wrote2018-12-20 05:01 pm
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Last Hiatus Update of 2018!

As is tradition, I am making an update to dreamwidth because I have taken another hiatus from twitter. I've been meaning to update with SOMETHING ever since tumblr started doing its NSFW purge, I just didn't get around to it until now.

It would be really cool if more OTHER people started coming back to DW for want of a less frustrating fandom platform but I am not really expecting it. Nevertheless... It makes me want to put some less tedious content than Life Essays on my journal. I've been saying ALL YEAR that I want to start writing entries with impressions of books I've read or with meta for fandoms I'm in but so far I've only done the one fandom essay, way back in February. I'll have to kick my ass a bit more about that.



Before I get around to that, though, I just want to make ye olde update on how life has been. I try not to talk about work here much but for the most basic update on that: work has me stressed out of my goddamn mind. I was hoping it'd calm down within a week but the latest update is, while things will be LESS stressful, they won't be calm until the beginning of February. So that's fun.

My birthday was last week! Ciry and I held our fourth annual birthdaycon, wherein we invite a bunch of friends down to Maryland and have a whole big birthday party weekend together. This year guests included Yrin, Samy, Indi, Lemon, Sam, Jane, and Psiten, in addition to Ciry and myself. Primary birthday party activities included cooking breakfast for everyone Saturday morning, karaoke in DC, all you can eat hot pot in Rockville, and delicious, delicious chocolate orange cake cooked by Samy (which we were all too full to eat more than a bite of Saturday night but it truly was sooooo good). Folks all headed off again on Sunday save for Yrin, who was here through Monday. It was... So nice all around.

I actually read my last entry before writing this and was really enjoying my breakdown of my update by subject and kind of wanted to do an update on that update, but perhaps not in so much depth. Anime NYC happened and it was a great time, I had my visit with Yrin in Boston in November, Thanksgiving dinner with my family was pretty chill. I've continued to drive with dad as much as possible and have been practicing parking, which I continue to suck at but need to be able to do well in the specific way the Maryland test requires so I can get my goddamn license. My social life has felt good and satisfying. I'm still clean of tenirabi and have bought a few more games for my switch including pokemon: let's go and the katamari remaster.

Aside from work making me want to closed mouth scream constantly for an eternity, life is pretty good! I am excited for 2018 to be fucking over! I kind of want to do some kinda DW yearly roundup post and I know memes of the sort used to get passed around but I haven't seen anything like that yet on any of my social media. I wrote a lot more this year than I EXPECTED to write (and probably more than I did in 2017 to be honest) but I can't do the monthly writing summary some people have been doing, because I did not write for more than half of the months in the year and for the ones I did, it was all the same project. It would... Not be a very satisfying meme.

I really am going to try to do a write-up of the books I've finished this year / books I am in the process of reading and will hopefully finish next year. I've been saying that for ages but now that the year is over and I've literally written up the list, I may yet do it!

As far as the twitter hiatus goes... This is my first day without it and I already feel so much better. I've talked about this before but it remains true: it's not the politics, it's not the fandom drama, it's not the percentage of content that isn't of interest to me. The reason twitter stresses me out genuinely just seems to be the format of the service itself; with all other factors minimized it still makes me feel overloaded because the nature of twitter is to bombard you with information faster than you can process it. Every time I cut that overload out of my life, I feel better.

I went back through my DW updates and counted the hiatuses I've taken this year. Including this one, there were six:

-late December into January (2 weeks)
-late February into March (2 weeks)
-the entirety of June (4 weeks)
-late August into September (2 weeks)
-beginning of November (2 weeks)
-end of December through new year's (2 weeks)

Actually, writing it out that way is interesting because it lets me see that I spent about three and a half months of the year cold turkey off of twitter. That's more than a quarter of the past 365 days; I cannot stand to use twitter more than two straight months before it starts to make me nervy and unhappy. It's wild but terrible to think about.

I was talking with a friend about the possibility of just, designating a single day of the week as "my day to check and be on twitter" and then cold turkey avoid it for the other six days. It seemed silly and ridiculous but at this point, I'm planning to try it. I have too many friends who can only be reached on twitter to feel comfortable quitting entirely, and I like being able to use it during conventions to network with people. But the rest of the time... It's just genuinely not good for me.

I am a creature who loves rules and who is most comfortable with extremes. I know other people who, when they take a hiatus, will delete the twitter app or deactivate their account. I never do anything like that; once I decide I'm not going to use it, I can just NOT USE IT by sheer force of will. It's a more flexible rule like "use twitter for only one hour a day" that doesn't work for me. The thought here is: one day is enough time to talk to friends and catch up and receive messages without feeling rushed, but is little enough time that maybe I won't lose my damn mind.

Anyway, that's about it for the update! Twitter sucks, work sucks, life other than that is pretty good... I'm going to a play with my mother and aunt this Saturday, then on an adventure with mom to a mall an hour from us on Monday, then Christmas will be family time going to the movies and getting sushi. Hopefully I'll spend new year's with Katie and Michael, and the weekend after new year's is magfest. And then president's day weekend is Arisia, for which I'm headed to Boston again to stay with Yrin! I'm very excited for all my upcoming plans but also a little stressed because PLANS on top of work was starting to overwhelm me, so I'm just... Going to do my best to take it a day at a time and chill out and not pull myself apart.

I got this, I got this. To whoever is around on DW without a nudge from twitter: ILU, y'all are the best. ♥
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[personal profile] spywindow 2018-12-23 09:37 am (UTC)(link)
Oh no, I'm sorry to hear that work is stressful. :( February is so long to have to wait until, too. Crossing my fingers that life will at least spring some nice non-work related things on you in the meanwhile. Good luck with the twitter hiatus and the social plans!